Shy_Maary

My life since childhood was not good, my mother was killed by my father and he was imprisoned, so I grew up in an orphanage where I was beaten, after school I left, and now I do not have a home, I live here, there are no close and dear people , so I wanted to kill myself, as can be seen on my hand, I'm being treated by a psychologist about this, he says that I am suicidal,why does this happen to me ???? Why does no one love me ??I do not deserve to live well?